Nursing 101
To whom else have we to go, Jesus? You have the words of eternal life. The times when we most feel like the Lord is distant or that He is a detached, stoic being, these are the times He calls us to press deeper into Him rather than stepping back and embracing futility. It is so difficult for me when experiencing this to posture my heart towards Him. Like my middle name implies, I am a cold, dark rock on my own, but when the light of the Son reflects off of it then it is brilliant, radiant, and Christ-like.
Today was the final day of my internship at the nursing home in Pflugerville. It was only for three days, but I am definately different. It felt like a shock going in- overstimulation. I had not prepared spiritually for it (not that I would have to work up my “spiritualness”, but I just mean I was not humbled and willing to be used). Sooo first and second day were incredibly difficult. Today was different story. After talking to big brother Ryan and reading Hebrews 4, I went in this morning with a different mindset. I had the opportunity to minister to a resident and read my favorite part of Luke 9 with him about where Jesus tells the disciples to take up their cross daily and follow him. This man responded - it was excellent.
This experience of the nursing home has been so difficult but wonderful. Wonderful in that the Lord is shattering that box I put Him in. Thank you, Lord, that you do that every time I think I have it all figured out. I cannot make it one single moment without you. I will now be able to apply for the Children’s hospital here in a few monthes. I cannot wait. I drive by it in the mornings on the way to AustinHOP and I get very good butterflies in my stomach.
Dear brother, I want you to know as you are reading this that you to me are like a precious, small, albino pony dashing across the open plains of the African savannas. Run, little pony…for where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. Thanks for helping me get this page up.
May 19th, 2006 at 12:30 pm
What a delightful post! It seems as though the Lord has taught you something during your internship. That in itself means that he cares for you. He only keeps working on the lives and hearts of those whom he loves and wants to see become closer to him.
And you are most welcome for the help with your new blog. May it truly bless you in your life.
May 20th, 2006 at 12:38 am
I know, He does not give up on us, brother. I am so thankful for that! He really is madly in love with us.
This in some ways is better than hand writing in my journal because I can type the speed of my thoughts.