Honesty…at a price…
I have been practicing being honest with people. Already it has brought so much depth to my relationships with people. When I came home today from the clinic meeting, as I was heading upstairs my mom told me to let her know when I was ready to pray with her (we had planned on praying this morning but she had to leave). I took my 30-minute alone time away from people to recharge and then I went in her room on the floor and put some worship music on. The only reason I went in there is because their room houses the only working stereo in the house.
I was just spending time alone with the Lord and she came in and turned the music waaaay down and said, “Let’s pray.” I got upset and normally I would try to shrug it off or push it down, but instead I told her that it really hurt me that she just came in and bombarded my alone time with the Lord and how it bothers me alot when people sever violently into my meditation time.
She got defensive a little and explained she thought I was waiting for her. Then I felt defensive because I felt like she was devaluing my feelings. FINALLY, when I appolgized for assuming she was just being a jerk by turning off the music, THAT hurt her. Wow.
So finally we prayed together and Jesus came with His mighty spirit and mended our hearts. She told me that marriages often start to become bitter when there is miscommunication and no one speaks truth. So even though the whole situation was very painful and emotionally exausting, in the end it was definately worth it. It made our relationship less shallow. It really did humor me because we are both very sensitive women. I think these kinds of things take alot longer when you have two sensitive people.
