To Whom Else Have We To Go?

And He will lift you up. What an Awesome God that He would desire a broken and contrite heart. My God. It amazes me how I can see a brother or sister in Christ doing wrong and my reaction will be to judge them in my heart…instead of pray for them, which is exactly what needs to happen (especially if I am aware they are going through something). Its so strange that I can just have heaps of mercy for those who are not born again but my own brothers you said I have murdered in my heart. Something is off in my heart, Lord and I am so, so, so sorry for doing this…it grieves me in a painful way not only that I would respond this way about my brother but also its indicative of me not really knowing and believing at my core that if my Savior had not washed me I would surely die. I was on a grease poll going to hell when You came and got me. Sadly, a lot of believers live carnal and their conscious has been seared for so long they do not realize the judgment to come upon them if they do not turn from their ways. This should inspire me to pray instead of prey…as my pastor would say.
I love what Jesus told Peter in John 21 when they were walking together and Jesus was speaking of the type of death Peter would die for the faith and Peter turns around and points to John and asks what would happen of him (pretty much asking if John will have to die as well, diverting away from himself) and Jesus responded to Him, “What’s it to you if he remains until I return? YOU follow ME.”

Jesus, I love you, and I know you have placed in my heart a tremendous hate for the things you hate and love for the things you love. I am able to discern them but the most important thing, which is love YOU with all of my heart and love also my brother I am missing. This is foundational and I want to love you with ALL and from this I will be able to admonish those with love. You love people (for you so loved the world you gave your only Son) and if I love you I will love them, too.