Mama
I had a dream last night where for the first time since my mom died when I was 15, I was able to see her face. I have had many dreams about her since she died ten years ago, but in every single one of them I could not see her face. She was always with her back facing me. But last night I was RIGHT in front of her. I was the age I am now but it felt like I was in my body from when I was a child. I was weeping when I saw her. I just remember crying for a long time in the dream because I was with her and she was making eye contact with me. I woke up missing her. There is still so much I cannot remember about her, and I think a lot of it I blocked out of my memory the day she died. But slowly things come back to me, like when I used to lay in her lap and she would play with my hair, or when she would give us our flu shots in the kitchen, or how she was always there for her friends and always helping people. She was a great lady. Lord, You have given me so much grace to move forward, thank you <3
